On a plane in 7 days!

Well, I have officially had my break-down. I feel so overwhelmed right now. We had our travel meeting call and that wasn't so bad, but afterwards I went to try to finish the shopping that needed to be done and it hit me....I am leaving in 7 days, without my precious boys and going to be half way around the world and won't be able to get to them. Of course the whole plane crashing and them being raised by someone else problem too!!! I know it's not going to happen, but..it can. I am trying to focus on the exciting things, but every once in a while those horrible feelings and thoughts creep in. I know that God is in control of this whole thing, but it's hard when a HUMAN is flying the plane!! :) I will probably only get more emotional and the reality will hit probably worse Tuesday and esp Wednesday. I have already imagined me telling the boys bye at the airport and all of us crying...I hate to see my boys cry!!! I KNOW they are going to be fine, I just want to come back!! :)

Anyway, we got our travel itinerary today and we do get Olivia on her 9 month birthday!! I am so excited about that! I can't wait to hold her and kiss her and just look at her. I know she is going to be beautiful, and she is probably going to be more beautiful than I could ever imagine!!

Well, off to do some more housework and then hopefully I can get some sleep. Haven't been doing much of that lately!! I hope I am not the only one going through all of this because that would make me weird!! Well, until next time..please keep praying, esp for my emotions and thoughts to be positive...the boys need me to be positive for them to be okay with everything, so I am going to try my best! Thank you and will update later!