On a plane in 7 days!

Well, I have officially had my break-down. I feel so overwhelmed right now. We had our travel meeting call and that wasn't so bad, but afterwards I went to try to finish the shopping that needed to be done and it hit me....I am leaving in 7 days, without my precious boys and going to be half way around the world and won't be able to get to them. Of course the whole plane crashing and them being raised by someone else problem too!!! I know it's not going to happen, but..it can. I am trying to focus on the exciting things, but every once in a while those horrible feelings and thoughts creep in. I know that God is in control of this whole thing, but it's hard when a HUMAN is flying the plane!! :) I will probably only get more emotional and the reality will hit probably worse Tuesday and esp Wednesday. I have already imagined me telling the boys bye at the airport and all of us crying...I hate to see my boys cry!!! I KNOW they are going to be fine, I just want to come back!! :)

Anyway, we got our travel itinerary today and we do get Olivia on her 9 month birthday!! I am so excited about that! I can't wait to hold her and kiss her and just look at her. I know she is going to be beautiful, and she is probably going to be more beautiful than I could ever imagine!!

Well, off to do some more housework and then hopefully I can get some sleep. Haven't been doing much of that lately!! I hope I am not the only one going through all of this because that would make me weird!! Well, until next time..please keep praying, esp for my emotions and thoughts to be positive...the boys need me to be positive for them to be okay with everything, so I am going to try my best! Thank you and will update later!

12 DAYS LEFT!!

I was just sitting here looking at all the new referrals that came in, remembering the way I felt at this time last month and just had to write a few words. I look at the pictures that we "think" is Olivia, and I just get so teary-eyed. I just think that in 16 days, we will be holding our daughter, who we have been waiting for, through this adoption, for 21 months!! I have always wanted a daughter and the Lord saw fit for me to have 3 of the most precious, sweet, gorgeous, gentle boys ever. Now, don't get me wrong, they do have faults, but I think the good qualities cover their bad most of the time!! I have truly been blessed with my boys, but always knew that I wanted a little girl, a daughter, to call my own!! This truly is a blessing from God and we are so blessed to be able to do something like this. I think this is why God gave me 3 sons, because He knew that we would be doing this and without a "birth" daughter, this thought might not have entered our minds. Now don't get me wrong, WE KNOW that God's will would be accomplished no matter what, but our minds sometimes try to get in the way, so although we know that God had Olivia for us all along, I personally think it took me having 3 boys to see it clearly!!

Anyway, I am sooo excited, scared, anxious, worried, and just really elated to go and get Olivia. We are soooo going to miss our boys because we have never been away from them for more than 5 nights, they are in school, they are getting switched around, to great people, but nontheless, switched around and we are going to be worried about them!! We know it will be fine, but it's still going to be hard! They will be on our minds greatly, but what an opportunity.
All three boys came up to me tonight and said,"Momma, I want my sister!!" and they didn't hear the other one say it...how loved is she going to be???

Well, I am going now. Chase has a bad ear infection that I had to go to Walgreens at 12:00 for meds. His ear is swollen about 3xs what it should be, the ear opening is NOT OPEN!! He can't hear anything and he's in pain. My children HATE to miss church. They have had 103 degree fever and still mad at me for keeping them from going to church and tonight Chase asked if he could stay home...he has to feel bad. Pray for him. School starts Monday and he DOESN'T need to be sick!!

I am really going now. Thanks for being interested in our family enough to read all this "stuff!" I love having this. I hope you like reading it.
So, until later....