LEAVING TOMORROW~~

Oh my goodness, can it really be true?? After 2 years of waiting and we are actually leaving tomorrow??? I cannot believe this. I am finally on my way to see my daughter!!!! AGGGHHHH!!
I am packed and I have Olivia's things packed. Anthony was going to pack tonight, but he had his first break-down and didn't really feel like doing it. He just wanted to play x-box and get his mind off of it for a few hours. So.... I painted the hallway and should finish it tomorrow, so that will make me feel better to have that done.
For those of you who are currently in the waiting stage, get ready. I can't even explain the waves of emotion that has happened to both of us. I have talked to a few other people in our group and they said the same thing. It's amazing how many emotions come out. I think I am on the down side of mine and then Anthony starts. He says that he wants to be strong for me and the boys, but he has a huge knot in the middle of his chest that won't go away!! Poor thing!He broke down in front of the deacons at the church and then with me....that's pretty emotional for the leader of the church to break-down in front of his deacons, so you know it must be bad. They all gave him hugs and told him they would pray for him and that everything would be okay, so it helped. Just continue to pray for us...leaving our boys is going to be hard enough, but added to me never flying and Anthony trying to be strong for me is going to make it even harder!
We are very excited and can't wait to post pictures for you to see our beautiful little girl. We are going to try to put something on here everyday, but if we miss a day, we will put something later on.
I will post that we are here and maybe a few pictures of Beijing on your Friday, our Saturday if possible.
Thank you to all of you for all the wonderful encouraging words. I love you all and know that you are just as excited for us to come home so that you too can spoil her.
You all mean a great deal to me and I love you very much, you know who you are. I know you will take care of my boys and that's something that makes it easier for me to leave. I know you love them very much too and will be there for them. I love you guys!
Well, until this weekend, please just pray for safety on the plane, let it be fine the whole way there!!!!! THE PLANE WILL NOT CRASH!! I keep telling myself. Keep checking and I will post as much as possible. Please leave comments, I would love to hear from you all!!
Again, I love all of you and can't wait to let you know how things are going!!So....as of 9:40 tomorrow, we will officially be on our way to be parents to a beautiful Chinese baby girl!!! YEAH!!! Praise be to God and all His glory!!

On a plane in 7 days!

Well, I have officially had my break-down. I feel so overwhelmed right now. We had our travel meeting call and that wasn't so bad, but afterwards I went to try to finish the shopping that needed to be done and it hit me....I am leaving in 7 days, without my precious boys and going to be half way around the world and won't be able to get to them. Of course the whole plane crashing and them being raised by someone else problem too!!! I know it's not going to happen, but..it can. I am trying to focus on the exciting things, but every once in a while those horrible feelings and thoughts creep in. I know that God is in control of this whole thing, but it's hard when a HUMAN is flying the plane!! :) I will probably only get more emotional and the reality will hit probably worse Tuesday and esp Wednesday. I have already imagined me telling the boys bye at the airport and all of us crying...I hate to see my boys cry!!! I KNOW they are going to be fine, I just want to come back!! :)

Anyway, we got our travel itinerary today and we do get Olivia on her 9 month birthday!! I am so excited about that! I can't wait to hold her and kiss her and just look at her. I know she is going to be beautiful, and she is probably going to be more beautiful than I could ever imagine!!

Well, off to do some more housework and then hopefully I can get some sleep. Haven't been doing much of that lately!! I hope I am not the only one going through all of this because that would make me weird!! Well, until next time..please keep praying, esp for my emotions and thoughts to be positive...the boys need me to be positive for them to be okay with everything, so I am going to try my best! Thank you and will update later!